Prayer seems useless to me. I’ve only ever had two prayers in my life—just two—because they were the most essential, and I didn’t want to bother God with my problems.
One prayer was for someone else, and the other was for myself. I prayed the first prayer for someone else, and then, a decade later, I made the second prayer for myself.
But my prayers were never answered. Throughout my life, I’ve continued to hold on to just those two prayers. If God is real, He isn’t a man, and He’s worse than the deceiver—the most beautiful angel He created and then cast out. God gave him what he wanted immediately out of jealousy. All I wanted was to express concern for someone else’s condition and my own.
I will continue to hold those two prayers in my mind. At this moment, I am a realist. The world before me is what’s real. Those two prayers were the easiest prayers to answer and fix. Everything God supposedly wanted for me could have been saved by answering those two prayers—that’s how I know God isn’t real.
Hello Andrew Wilson. Thank you for stopping by- and let me just say how much I love that you shared this with me! 🙂
Now I am not going to try to convince you about the existence of God or pretend that I know the will of The Almighty (non-existent to you of course).
I also cannot imagine what you have been through or what let-downs have brought you to this conclusion… But dear friend, I will say that in my 40 plus year on this earth I have had days that have got me questioning life as it is – my position, His position, the whole tapestry. It is exhausting!
I “hear you” when you say: Everything God supposedly wanted for me could have been saved by answering those two prayers.
However, have you ever considered that He was saving you from something else? In this life Andrew, 1+1 doesn’t always equal 2 and especially when it comes to the workings of The Divine. I believe that He see the end from the beginning and so I choose to bear that in mind when things don’t go the way I want – even when it came to losing a dear one… like my dad or being heart broken over and over until I became a mom.
Let me leave you with this story… and it is true. My parents witnessed this when they were newly married:
There was this neighbor of their with a terrible son. She was a mid-aged, single mom and he was a a drug addict in his early 20’s. The young man lived a life of crime that eventually let to his death by a mob lynching.
When his mother found out, she did not mourn and people thought her cold for this, but as it turns she had good reason.
Many years ago when he was a little boy, her son had been involved in a drowning accident. When they got him out of the water he wasn’t breathing. I’m not sure about the details, but at a point they thought he wouldn’t make it. She prayed and begged for him to return to her – her only child. He did alright, but you see, when he came back his destiny took a nose dive. This only child that she prayed would stay to care for her in her old age became her undoing.
Think about it Andrew- those many years of heartache could be avoided if she had just let him go that first time.
A lot of times HE see things that will hurt us and is trying to save us from it.
There is an African proverb that goes “What an elder sees sitting down, a child will not see it even if he stands on an Iroko tree”. If this is how we ought to view our elders, then how much more The Omnipotent God?
Don’t give up on Him my friend… because He has not and will never give up on you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾☮️☮️☮️☮️
… as I said before, this is not me trying to convince you 😉
If God was real, at this time I know what he has planned for me. But I’m not going to be dead before I can get that mission complete. I can’t contribute my value to life because of the people. I can’t fulfill God’s Mission if people are going to keep oppressing me. I had extraordinary gifts to innovate the Care and husbandry of animals. Not to prove that some stupid voice can possess or that dumb demons are real.
Festival King 
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Prayer seems useless to me. I’ve only ever had two prayers in my life—just two—because they were the most essential, and I didn’t want to bother God with my problems.
One prayer was for someone else, and the other was for myself. I prayed the first prayer for someone else, and then, a decade later, I made the second prayer for myself.
But my prayers were never answered. Throughout my life, I’ve continued to hold on to just those two prayers. If God is real, He isn’t a man, and He’s worse than the deceiver—the most beautiful angel He created and then cast out. God gave him what he wanted immediately out of jealousy. All I wanted was to express concern for someone else’s condition and my own.
I will continue to hold those two prayers in my mind. At this moment, I am a realist. The world before me is what’s real. Those two prayers were the easiest prayers to answer and fix. Everything God supposedly wanted for me could have been saved by answering those two prayers—that’s how I know God isn’t real.
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Hello Andrew Wilson. Thank you for stopping by- and let me just say how much I love that you shared this with me! 🙂
Now I am not going to try to convince you about the existence of God or pretend that I know the will of The Almighty (non-existent to you of course).
I also cannot imagine what you have been through or what let-downs have brought you to this conclusion… But dear friend, I will say that in my 40 plus year on this earth I have had days that have got me questioning life as it is – my position, His position, the whole tapestry. It is exhausting!
I “hear you” when you say: Everything God supposedly wanted for me could have been saved by answering those two prayers.
However, have you ever considered that He was saving you from something else? In this life Andrew, 1+1 doesn’t always equal 2 and especially when it comes to the workings of The Divine. I believe that He see the end from the beginning and so I choose to bear that in mind when things don’t go the way I want – even when it came to losing a dear one… like my dad or being heart broken over and over until I became a mom.
Let me leave you with this story… and it is true. My parents witnessed this when they were newly married:
There was this neighbor of their with a terrible son. She was a mid-aged, single mom and he was a a drug addict in his early 20’s. The young man lived a life of crime that eventually let to his death by a mob lynching.
When his mother found out, she did not mourn and people thought her cold for this, but as it turns she had good reason.
Many years ago when he was a little boy, her son had been involved in a drowning accident. When they got him out of the water he wasn’t breathing. I’m not sure about the details, but at a point they thought he wouldn’t make it. She prayed and begged for him to return to her – her only child. He did alright, but you see, when he came back his destiny took a nose dive. This only child that she prayed would stay to care for her in her old age became her undoing.
Think about it Andrew- those many years of heartache could be avoided if she had just let him go that first time.
A lot of times HE see things that will hurt us and is trying to save us from it.
There is an African proverb that goes “What an elder sees sitting down, a child will not see it even if he stands on an Iroko tree”. If this is how we ought to view our elders, then how much more The Omnipotent God?
Don’t give up on Him my friend… because He has not and will never give up on you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾☮️☮️☮️☮️
… as I said before, this is not me trying to convince you 😉
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If God was real, at this time I know what he has planned for me. But I’m not going to be dead before I can get that mission complete. I can’t contribute my value to life because of the people. I can’t fulfill God’s Mission if people are going to keep oppressing me. I had extraordinary gifts to innovate the Care and husbandry of animals. Not to prove that some stupid voice can possess or that dumb demons are real.
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I’m not worried about religion too much! But a lot of scientific data and research is being wasted over a religion.
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‘Totally respect that.
I’m “*almost*” jealous of you, being that you have an idea of what your calling is. Most people go through life having no idea who they are about.
I hope that you find what you are looking for and fulfill your life’s mission 💐🙏🏽❤️☮️
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Thank you, I appreciate it!
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That’s a great response.🌺
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👍👍👍
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