Category: About me

My Honey Bee … To my daughter

Dear Honey Bee,

I prayed for you, and during my conversation with The Creator, the weirdest instruction came to mind: “Give her an animal spirit.” And so, I fashioned the character I hoped you would imbibe through the qualities of… the Honey Bee. 🐝

Why the Honey Bee, you ask? Well, I asked myself the same question as the thought flashed before my mind’s eye.

My first thought was that “Honey Bee” would be a great nickname for a girl, but my spirit pressed further.

Not only did the name appeal to me, but the essence of the animal itself… its qualities. It was based on those qualities that I became convinced this marvelous creature’s character was meant for you.

… The Honey Bee

Sena, I dub you the Honey Bee. You are my Honey Bee; you are The Lord’s Honey Bee. From you springs qualities of love, simplicity, sweetness, happiness, and kindness. But even more, like the honey bee that buzzes from flower to flower spreading pollen for the continuation of life, you, my darling, spread joy wherever you go. You have a light in you that could only have been put there by The Creator Himself. Always remember that, and use these gifts to make HIM happy—by making others around you happy. 😇

Sena, is it okay if I take a little more time to dig deeper into the character I have forged for you as a parent?

You see, Sena, in the kingdom of the honey bee—also known as a hive—there are three types of bees:

  • The Worker Bees
  • The Soldier Bees
  • The Queen Bee

Now, I say Queen because there is only one Queen at all times in a hive, while there are many, many worker and soldier bees. Isn’t that something?!

From all the classes of this magnificent creature, you possess qualities that make you the radiant being that you are.

  • From the worker bee, you inherit your energetic spirit—you are cooperative, an achiever, and a team player.
    Worker bees are known to nurse the babies of the hive, and from them, you get your extremely caring attitude.
  • As a Soldier Bee, you are physically and mentally strong. You are focused, respectful, selfless, and courageous.
    The soldier bee defends its hive against any threat or enemy, and just like them, you are devoted to loving and defending those around you. Thank you for loving and defending me. 😍
  • As the Queen Bee, you are unique, with a beautiful soul that stands out and attracts things of The Light.
    You are royalty, made by The Creator’s Hand and for His Glory alone.

Sena, I need you to always see yourself as the leader that you are. You are a servant to those you lead. Yes, you are a GOOD leader.

You are sweet! Just like the female worker honey bee that creates honey, you, my dear Sena, make honey through your infectious joy and laughter, your kindness, thoughtfulness, and humble spirit.

Finally, honey bees are key to flower pollination, much like butterflies that flutter from bloom to bloom, spreading seeds of life. You, my Honey Bee, are kind and ever willing to share—not just your physical belongings, but also your joy. You make others happy… you make me happy.

Always remember to see yourself this way, my Honey Bee.
Walk this path, and The Lord Almighty will continue to bathe you in HIS Light.

I love you, my Honey Bee… my Sena.

To Parents:

We have a responsibility to our children—to help mold their destiny. Why not start by blessing them with a spirit animal?
The purpose of this open love letter to my daughter is to show just how fulfilling it can be when a child is given character even before birth—and to witness all those qualities unfold as they grow.

… Speak into their lives, and then speak to them.

To Children:

You are special. You are loved. And you too have Character!

Caterpillar in a cocoon

In the past I bore too many faces, until I became no one,

A reader; A writer,

A poet; A preacher,

The critique; The counsellor,

Encourager and challenger.

I loved to write, I always had something to say! Be it in the form of poetry, rant, advice or ridicule. The clicking sound that resonated from my the key board when I was at it put me on a certain high and that feeling after finishing a post; surreal. It didn’t really matter how many likes I got … or did it?…

In hind sight I realise now how much I depended on what people though of what I had to say, and while was I got some pretty good comments and reviews on my posts plus followings, I always felt that I wasn’t good enough or better put, I felt I was only had talent for a season…

If you are anything like me then you can relate when I talk about that voice in the back of my mind. It can be a friend or foe; Could be a number 1 cheerleader or not. For me it was a NOT.

“They Like you now FK, but what happens when you run out of things to say”

That constant play in my head became louder and louder until I started to believe it… “Talent for a Season”, WOW! I blamed my declining posts on writer’s block, but never stopped to consider why or from where the block originated from. For me the element of inspiration was gone, my talent was gone, and so I shut that door and focused on life outside the Bloggerverse.

From my 9 to 5 job to focusing on motherhood to REALLY great gal to just lazying around in my head, I exhausted whatever time I would have used to be here. Make no mistake however. I never forgot what I left behind. In fact, it was in my lazy moments I would once in a while pop into this space, and the pain would overwhelm me. The Pain of not being able to express myself the way I once did would consume me, and instead of feeling proud of what I had accomplished here or who I had been, I would leave feeling less of myself.

… But here is where I got it wrong, the phrase “who I had been”. Why did I have to make that version of me a past tense?

Why is it so easy for us as human beings to give up on the best part of ourselves, especially when that part of us is being tested, whether it be by that voice in our heads or an actual situation? You write a post or a books and It gets amazing reviews and lots of hits; It make you feel good, and then subsequent material carries less pizazz. Feedback isn’t as great and so you think “the first success was a fluke, just a matter of chance”. My take? Well, If its a matter of Chance then keep at it till chance comes right around again!

KEEP AT IT! Don’t let go of who you are or of that talent because no matter how low it feels at the time, you are like a caterpillar going through its metamorphosis into a butterfly, and while in that stage of cocooning that could feel pretty stagnant, rather than focusing on who you are or where you are, take the time to look ahead at the possibilities before you resulting from that dwindling blessing for yours. With that in mind, you should find the spark needed to keep the fire burning and even brighter for that matter.

Remember that the caterpillar’s transitions into a butterfly, looking absolutely different from its former self. Lets bear that in mind on our own individual journeys… You will be surprised what your talent has in store for you and where life will take you with it.

That voice in your head saying you can’t do it, its not real! YOU are your greatest cheerleader and not that voice. That circumstance making you feel you are not up to the challenge, so not true! Its just there as part of a learning curve if you will agree with me. In the end the choice is yours; The choice is mine, how we see ourselves. In every situation you and I hold the power to see “self” at its best, no matter how unbecoming the circumstance.

… And so I end from where I began:

In the past I bore too many faces, until I became no one… Todayyyy, I am a Mom to a REALLY great gal, a 9 to 5iver, a blogger and writer in the making and finally, a Caterpillar in her Cocoon! 😉

Never cut a tree down in the wintertime. Never make a negative decision in the low time. Never make your most important decisions when you are in your worst moods. Wait. Be patient. The storm will pass. The spring will come. – Robert H. Schuller #Patience

You’ve got to believe in your damn self and do the damn thing, so I’m a big believer in self-belief, man, and going out there and working hard and sacrificing. – Max Holloway #SelfBelief

Each time we face our fear, we gain strength, courage, and confidence in the doing. – Theodore Roosevelt #SelfConfidence

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